I opened my locked LiveJournal for the first time in eleven years, and I couldn’t believe the enjoyment I experienced from reading entries dated 10+ years ago. Seeing the transformation from my 2006 self to my 2017 self, I decided I should practice journaling for the rest of my life.
I’ve had a few other blogs in between the LiveJournal and now, including this URL. Lots of locked posts are buried in the closet of this WordPress, while the BlogSpots don’t exist anymore. Even though the act of reflective writing is always helpful, I didn’t want the negativity of many of those blogs to settle into permanence—and the Internet feels like a dump of too much semi-permanent, easily accessible, and outdated information, like the trenches of intellectual waste left behind by my generation, and the generations that came after us—so I left those blogs behind.
This time, I want to journal (reflectively write) without the negativity—without the bleh of my twenties. Now that I’m thirty-two, teaching college, and continuing my education with the intent to teach K-12, I’d like to focus on the good things, the positive things; I’d like to reflect in an open and encouraging way. I feel like if I evaluate life in this more delicate and respectful way, I’ll extend those good vibes to myself and my loved ones, too.
Also, I found this inspirational picture from Brightdrops.com to help me get started. 🙂
My life’s been too much about trying to survive and mend old wounds. In Fresno—with Chase and his loving family, and all the educational opportunities available to me (on both sides of the classroom, no less!)—it’s time to focus less on making a living, and think more about how to make my life.